I Can't Live With You-Queen

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Looking Back
Entry #4

THESE EYES
I have not been drinking
I did not use drugs
you can check my locker
I don't mind

These Eyes
are red and glossy
for other reasons
that I do not feel comfortable
speaking about

Do not call home
or set up an appointment
with my mom

Her eyes look this way too

RUN AWAY
My best friend has run away
but won't run
to my house

I guess I'd like to run away
but what would
happen
to my mother?

DON'T COME OVER
Won't you be be my boyfriend
Take me away
Take me...
Today

Stop my crying
My fear
Sure...
I'll have a beer

Anything to fit in
with a crowd
that is loud
and can drown out the voices
inside of my head

I can be fun
Yeah, the life of the party
Pick me up at 8
Wait...

I'll meet you somewhere
Instead

VALEDICTORIAN
I do not hold it against you
for not showing up
at my graduation

I know that you found
the bottom of a bottle
and could not find
your way
to the high school
parking lot

I know that you don't remember
and think...
that you might have been there

But I have no
snapshopts
in my photo album
and neither
do you

FUTURE PAIN
Boyfriends com
and go
Dear mother

Yet you are always
near

A face of pain
and some regret

Do you often
wish
for your younger years
or are they-all
a blur
in the bottom of-
your bottle

Will you be
okay
some day
when I am-gone
and you are
here
left
alone

I worry
but cannot be
-afraid