I Wish I Was a Girl-Counting Crows

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I wish I was a girl...not a woman on the edge

I would make some different decisions...
Where would I start??????

Hang on to friendships tightly

Don't ever pick up that first cigarette

Join groups, lots off them

Live on my own before getting married

Hmmm...don't feel the need to get married just cuz your parents move far away and leave you

Even though you are an only child...try not to feel like it...spread your wings

Take risks...do not fear failure

Realize that things can be changed

Do not have children...they are impossible at all ages...well maybe just one of them is

Stay optimistic...I am usually...on the outside...(these last few days my Blog has been a bit over the edge...but if you saw me on the street...you'd never know it. Just today a fellow coworker said to me..."You are always so happy, and your bright colored shirts reflect your great personality..." Wow...they don't know that i am always wearing black undergarmens!!!)

Yeah...If I was still a girl...I'd look at the future differently.

Sometimes i make my biggest wish...and wish for just ONE Week from the past...not a constant week, but certain days..

1. My 8th birthday...outside...my parents happy...not fighting in front of my friends...and that bird not shitting on my new party dress. It was still a great day...I'd do that one again.

2. My first dance with JW in 8th grade...he had no idea how much it meant to me...I have the picture my friend took of it. I had planned it for weeks. He had no clue that I made up a kiss...all inside of my head...and almost believed that it happened for years. I thought there would be a possibility...so I practiced on my hand!

3. A party down at the lakefront on a weekend in high school. All of us friends...about 50 with a few 1/4 barrels. Barefoot...day into night...and the sunburn that came the next day. The guy that put his arm around me...shocked me...then made me happy...we dated for about 3 months after that!

4. My prom...and that night at the Pfister Hotel. I miss him so much more than he misses me. I think.

5. A night on my Senior class trip...with friends old and new

6. One night in an art class in college...the model...the dark chalk...inspirational.

7. One night that I spent on the run from my unhappy home...in a car with a friend...until dawn.

That is my wish list now...sometimes I insert and delete a few here and there. The list only entails my life up to 19 or 20 years of age.

I have an even better one as an adult.

Ha...things I would repeat...things I would change...
LIFE is Grand...
LIFE Sucks

I WISH I had the answers

"For all the things you're losing
You might as well resign yourself to try and make a change
And I'm going down to Hollywood
They're gonna make a movie from the things
That they find crawling round my brain

I wish I was a girl
So that you could believe me
And I could shake this static every time I try to sleep"
-Counting Crows