Outta Your Head-Aerosmith

Life
Originally uploaded by crazysexygroovy.

Trying sooo desperatly to get certain thoughts out of my Head here....but just Can'T

Even though there are things that seem to have going my way lately...there are still things that are not, and I have no one to talk to about that but myself.
I wish I could hold a sense of humor about all of this, but it seems as if I have lost my Humor Muse
....all gone.

I jumped in T's pool around 10:30 this morning and floated around in a circle of thought. If I was truly Autistic, the cycle would have been invigorating, but alas...no such luck.
...On to watching Meet Joe Black for the gazillionth time, the sex scene caused an outburst of pent up emotion and distress.
...Took a nap in the late afternoon, fought with H about his procrastination regarding the park activities, and hopped into the car by myself. The very same thing happened last year....we fought...I went alone.
...Saw "Australia". He was there with his wife and kids...mother tagging along. Our eyes connected...we even smiled, but I couldn't stand to watch him...wanted to be closer....to touch him...so I bailed and came home.

Camped out in front of the TV again...H had "gone out" on his own. Watched Garden State...again...
...again
...again
Geeez....HBO is driving me CRAZY.

Summer drags in August...I begin to become bored...waiting to go back to school/work...and am done with the entire Tanning excitement.

I am Outta My Head crazy here....and still can not decide whether I am experiencing sadness or anger.

I think depression is repressed anger...I think.

I heard a line in a movie the other day...female character suggesting to a friend that she should say how she feels outloud...to others.

Damn...can't even do that.
The Ledge is Sooooo CLOSE to my FEET