Fix You-Coldplay

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My heart
My head
My crazy thoughts

They think...
unceasingly...

I look around here and wonder what it is that makes me so terribly unhappy. Could it be the 9 pairs of skateboard shoes that lay in my way each and every day I enter through the door. The jacket and backpack that sit up on the newest couch that I have asked be left without clutter? The soda cans and St. Nick wrappers that never make it to the garbage can? The relentless agony and bombardment of questions that have already been answered by "NO"? The taunting, the teasing, the triumphant display when I finally break down and cry? The constant fact that the dryer door should be shut but is always left open? The fact that an alarm does not wake him, and when I do, I get my head bit off? The fact that there is never an apology for the destructive behaviors?

And that is just from one member that I live with. If I put the other issues down in writing I will have to face the text. I can't do that right now...maybe never.

The cat puked on my bed last night. I never even noticed it until the morning, when I threw back the covers to get up and get dressed. It grossed me out and made me feel as if even she had no respect for me.
I slept like crap and have been for the last few nights. But this last night I was up every hour or so. Tossing and turning, I finally went down and took a shower at 3 am.
Upon my return upsatirs, I was questioned where I went.
"Gee, I jumped in the car, took a ride to the lake and jumped in. Oh Yeah, I stopped at the store and spent all of your money on frivilous items that only I can appreciate...then I jumped in the lake."

What does he think I did?
My heart thinks unceasingly.
Nothing can Fix me

"When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?"
-Coldplay