Great Day

Mental Note: I NEED TO DO THIS MORE OFTEN

That is all there is to it...
Get my ransom mind
away from itself
Go out to lunch
Even if it is alone... if needed

I became lost
In an elegant atmosphere
Downtown
Bustling streets
Suits and ties
Beautiful restaraunt
and I am not even talking ambiance

Just people....

If I could have stayed until that waiter was off of his shift
I would have never come home!!!!!

L thought that HE was my old boyfriend
YES....and the real HE... did stop and talk for a bit....
after several uneasy glances in my direction...
All small talk...kids...where we live...
L said she could tell what was lingering in the backs of our minds...
words coming out
but meaningless...
memories shifting inside.

But the WAITER.....
hmmmm.......
He lifted his eyebrow when he mentioned dessert
and I told him that he must have been practicing that

He offered more wine
I refused
And L claimed that everyone in the back room must be talking about ME

And I exclaimed....
Let's give them something to talk about!!!!!

2 glasses of Shiraz...not L ...she had to back ot the office
1/2 Salad
4 cigarettes

Jake the waiter said...please come back...
and touched my 'back"

I looked at L and said...Did you see him touch me?
She laughed..."You sitting there in that cute little pink skirt, and me in my "fat pants"
Of course he's gonna touch you!

We laughed tremendously...
I am still laughing...

And...
that is the very first time that I went to
my old boyfreind's restaraunt
and didn't carry old feeling of missed opportunity
home with me
about him.......

Hmmmmmmm

Sorry but.....I gotta get out more often!!!!!
It stares me right in the face.