Learning To Fly-Tom Petty

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Alright...

I am not gonna say that I had a marvelous time yesterday...it had it's ups and downs...but i must say this..

I am learning TO FLY over some of these obstacles and not allow them to phase me as much as they usually do.

I do believe that I have had several days now...without a serious attack of the BLUES.

YESTERDAY:
After waking up earlier than I want to on another hot, cloudless day of crystal blue sky...I pack a bag that encompasses a multitude of activities for an entire day of what some may call "FUN".
The ride seems endless, over an hour out to a lake estate. Should have remembered to pack the Sunday paper, (my very favorite thing to shuffle through on a Sunday). On an upnote; no "Dish to Pass " is necessary...the entire event is catered...down to the very last cute waiter and cabana boy.

My list of NO's:

No eye rolling
No over indulging in drink
No SMOKING
No mood swinging from trees
No asking "When are we going home?"
No flirting with staff
No water sports

Now, some of these No's are my own...others are set rules that I must follow, carefully devised to keep me out of trouble and shamefull conversation around the office or club on later dates.

The water sports rule is my own...after my flirt with death in Maui...I just do not feel comfortable in anything other that a smimming pool with true sides and a bottom.

The smoking rule is not mine and is the hardest to follow....other rules do come quite close....like the NO FLIRTING WITH STAFF RULE... At events such as these...even on vacation, or out and about...I find myself drawn to the staff much more than the guests...waiters, bartenders, wine stewards...all that...must less pretensious. So I tend to look like I have no interest in the rest of the group...which H says makes me look much more stuck up than the regular crowd themselves...WHAT? It is not like I seek the staff out...they come to me...and i have no idea why...it happens to H alot as well...out in public. He thinks we look open to many different types of people. He enjoys this aspect of life...actually...yet DO NOT let it happen around the business crowd! I guess I can try to do that for a day.

NOW SMOKING...is my vice...when nervous, happy, excited, anxious, tipsy, depressed...I just smoke.
So at an event such as this one...I drive myself crazy. No I can go for a few hours without a cigarette...an entire 7 hours on a work day even! But when in positions such as this...knowing that I am not allowed to smoke...it drives me nuts.

So while others are jet skiing, water skiing, tubing, dancing, lounging, and just mingling around to the tunes of the steel drum band....14 does me a big favor...and takes me out on a canoe...way past the bend...to a secret place to smoke a handfull of cigarettes. I feel as if I am doing something illegal..but BLESS his HEART...it does the trick.

The day does not end...the sun sets...the bands changes from daytime frolic to evening jazz. Fireworks begin to fly from the shoreline.
I am tired.

And on the long ride home...I fall asleep in the car.

Today...I wake, throw a swimsuit and shorts...and plan to relax.................................

MY WAY

Mental Note: Hey, I made it through that day...without a mood swing...must figure out how I did that.

"I’m learning to fly around the clouds
But what goes up must come down"
-Tom Petty