Stuck In A Moment You Can't Get Out Of-U2

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Most of my MOMENTS are hard to get out of

Had THREE of them just yesterday...
The weird depression head trip of a morning-
The tragic tension of a teen getting ready to travel-
The unexpected deterioration of a friendship-

and today...

I repeat the same morning-
Get the teen off on his trip-
and Blog in confusion-

Firstly...I have no idea why I go throught these strange mood swings. Inside my head I turn from happy to sad in a New York Minute. Nobody knows it...it all happens in my head...but it happens nonetheless.

Secondly..the teen got off on his trip after a morning of dancing on eggshells. I took a deep breathe each time I needed to ask him a simple question about his packing skills. "Did you get that shampoo? Would you like a case for your toothbrush?" I hate to say it...but I am glad that he is gone. It should be interesting to see how H and I get along without him around. If there is still this strange form of tension...I fear that I may have to walk out the door. Maybe if I sign a permanent contract for next fall....maybe if I could find a cheap apartment....maybe pigs will fly!

Lastly..the friendship thing...I am very confused...left alone with words that danced around in circles...but never gave a real reason...as if I was able to read between lines. Understood but misunderstood.

I guess sometimes people just give up on each other. They don't mean to, but things happen.

So today I plan to sit on the couch and eat comfort food which falls under the category of Sheer Gluttony Designed to Provide Short-Term Satisfaction...or maybe I will go on a starvation kick and live off of unlimited quantities Shiraz!
(That option sounds a bit better...with summer here and all)


What if John Steinbeck turned out to be right? What if there are some people in this world who just are not meant to be happy.

That's me though...came and went...coming and going...spinning in circles....waves of sorrow, pools of joy.
"I only know...She Came and Went..."
I am a Cat chasing butterflies...and sometimes it starts raining...:(

So here I sit, deciding if this is the day I should venture down to the lake, collecting stones and new summertime friends. But then again...I am also wondering...
Can lightning can strike the same girl twice?

Think I may have to find out.


"I'm not afraid of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me that I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find a decent melody
A song that I can sing in my own company love

Never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere, baby


You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment and now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it"
-U2