Trying- Lifehouse

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TRYING...to sleep...but...
Sleepless again...
So out into the yards after Midnight
Dipped my toes into "T's" pool
...and Plunged

There is something totally relaxing
about a Midnight swim
with no one else around
Solitude
Room to think
Water
under the Moon dappled sky....

I am like that often...
Outgoing and on the edge
Absolutly LOVE a Crowd
But also....A Loner...Introspective
I like to be the first person to walk through the fresh fallen snow
or dip a spoon into a peanut butter jar

Us gals have a "Yard" agreement...
and being like sisters that I never had
We Share....
Her pool and hot tub...
My surfin' patio, outdoor bar, and firepit...
"L's" gazebo and fountain...
"I's" casita...
Add them all together and we have a resort
...or so it seems!

So out under the stars
Fireflies flickering
and the gentle hoot of a nearby owl...
I softly swim in the darkness
TRYING to clear out my mind

Before I know it
T tiptoes out with some late night cocktails
She is in a contemplative mood as well...
We both realize that our 17's will be returning from their trip at the end of this week
Reality will return
The world will be shaken once more....

With the lighting of a few candles
and Tiki Torches
L is up too
and joins us

The three of us out
Under a moon
Black Russians
Friends!!!!!!!!

And I wake to a smile on my
Snow White Laptop

Gonna TRY to muster up enough sense
to run some errands

New vaccuum
Pool chemicals for T
Wine and snacks for tonight...

Concert in the park
Taking 14 and friends
Until H meets up with me
After his Twilight 5K

TRYING here....as best as I can....
It is SUMMER ya know!!!!

(And L calls me from her high powered job this morning...
just to say...SHIT...I wish I was a teacher!!)


"Could you let down your hair
And be transparent for a while
Just a little while
See if your human after all
Honesty is a hard attribute to find
When we all want to seem like... we've got it all figured out
I may be the first to say that I don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
And god I pretend like I do just
Trying to find my way
Trying to find my way the best that I know how

Well I haven't memorized all of the cute things to say
But I'm working on it
Maybe I'll master this art form today
If I'd qoute all the lines off the top of my head
Would you believe
I fully understand all of these things Ive read
Im just trying to find my way
Trying to find my way
Trying to find my way the best that I know how

Well I haven't drawn it or figured out quite yet
But even if it takes my whole life
To get to where I need to be
And if I should fall to the bottom of the end
I'll be one step back to you
I'm trying to find my way
Trying to find my way
Oh, I'm trying to find my way
Trying to find my way "
-Lifehouse