Into The SUn-Lifehouse

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Originally uploaded by Big Trippy Nathan.

He was as perfect as I had ever known
Smile so wide...all over me.
He waited quietly in the backdrop
Until I became free of another...
And then the dance began...
His arm slipped around my waist at a party with a quarterbarrel in the darkness of a park...my senior year...him just a junior, but merely 4 months younger. (25 years later...I still think of him on his birthday and secretly whisper his name)

Funny, there was once a time when he would walk down a science hallway, or into a crowded room at a weekend party and I never even saw him in a light that reflected love or the slightest curiosity of it. But once he peeked out, into my romantic view, covering me with kisses and showering me with a soft daze of warmth...wrapped up in his arms... I never wanted to let him go....little did I know...he would spin me around in circles so deep, only to dangle ME loose later...down the road...no warning signs.

We dated furiously for almost two years...it seemed like forever...what I wanted it to be. I broke HIS virginity on the night of my Senior Prom at the Pfister Hotel...our own room...marble floors, feather bed. Historic

He fast and soon became a silent savior. On evenings when my parents were relentlessly fighting and out of control...he would pull up in his orange Cutlass, soft horn, signaling my release... into the night.
Some evenings we would just park, and sleep it out in the front seat on a dead end street with windows cracked. Others, we would find a hotel, sometimes surprising me, trying to take away my mind, we would take different paths out of town...soaking in surroundings unfamiliar. He was a photographer....with a lens as deep as his heart, and I would give anything for the photos he took of me....pulling the darkness away from my very own soul and spirit.

One day, out of the blue, he spoke words that turned me numb. He didn't want to be with me. I was in college and he had other plans. A teacher was not to be in them. He picked up and left......INTO the SUN...moved to Australia..going to school hmself, a distance so very far away. That night lasted for 6 long years. Never a word or a glimpse of him. GONE

I will see him this weekend.
I will BLOG about the years gone by.
It did not end there...but for now my time is up.

"It's been a while since you last saw me
One breaks down and the other runs free
These eyes can see the days break
Too late for the other's mistakes

Sit down laugh thinking what have we done
Let me inside
Is it all over before it's begun
Please give me some time

Cause we are running into the sun
Getting close to something into the sun
You know that we're falling
We're falling back into the sun"
-Lifehouse