Storm-Lifehouse

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Originally uploaded by mediaeater.

I wake up this morning from an evening of storms...
some acutally literal!
After last night"s disgusting disagreement with H and traumatizing realization about H and his underminded reasonings for his "Summer of Fun"...yes HIS "Summer of Fun" I lay in bed only to be awakened by a devilish 3 a.m. storm.

I LOVE a good thunderstorm and so this was probably gifted to me by mother nature herself!
For my own little "Summer of Fun"!
And the best thing about this entire experience was that in my sleepy haze, I someow thought that I had to get up for work this morning. After drifting into forced and much needed sleep...I woke up this morning only to realize that I had one day left of the weekend!
YIPPEEE!!!
(It scares me to wonder what H has planned today!)

In five more days I will not have to worry about weekends again...every day of summer vacation is a WEEKEND. ( I know there is at least one of you reading this right now that hates me...I know who you are...you can't hide it...you do not teach!)

Stepping back to the emotional storm that spins inside my head, causing fury and deep dismay...at the exact same time...I have a question...just one simple question...
IS IT BETTER TO BE HAPPY AND NOT KNOW THE TRUTH...OR BE WISE TO OTHERS ACTIONS AND LIVE IN TURMOIL?

This question comes up quite often...not only with my most recent finding, but also with raising teens...
In that perspective...some of us parents ask eachother..."If your kids was doing something wrong like underage drinking or drugs and such...but they seemed happy and followed the rules...and you as a parent were too innocent to know what they were really up to...would anything be wrong...everyone would be happy, Right? "

Would this be better than the savvy parents who knows their kid is trying and experiementing with these temptations...and constantly confronts and conflicts with the teen...causing argument and stress in the household?
Is this not the reason that some parents just turn their heads...take a blind eye, even though they know that something might be wrong?

Is this what I should do in the case of H?
Be happy with what I have?
Don't overanalyze?
Hmmm...am I overanalyzing right now...yesss.

TODAY THE SUN SHINES!
AFTER THE STORM

(These are wonderful lyrics for my mood)

"How long have I
Been in this storm
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I'd see you
The storminess will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't
Bring me out here to drown
So why am I 10 feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface "
-Lifehouse