Anxious-General Public

Creepy Eye
Originally uploaded by CinnabarTears.

...I had a very unusual PANIC ATTACK TODAY
After a lazy afternoon at a downtown farmers market, a trip to visit with my favorite bassist/bartender playing in the "what was supposed to be" SUN
...That turned into raindrops and me seeking refuge under the tent of a very accomodating roasted corn vendor named "James"
I was allowed a very long break in the music to stand under the band gazebo and chat with my
musical muse

I did, however, feel a bit let down...the rain turned into a downpour and his band never returned to the stage...I felt a bit lonely afterwards...and let down.

I decided to make a pit stop at the local Humane Society...found myslef a beautiful black cat with emerald green eyes...4 year old surrender, very petite female, who cuddled in my arms more than anything has cuddled in my arms in the last 6 or7 years. I was smitten, and against all of my better judgement I filled out the adoption papers and purchase cat litter and food.
Upon putting it into the trunk of my car, and making the short walk back inside to pick up the waiting cat...I FREAKED
Turned Pale as a Ghost
Totally Lost IT
Have no Idea why....
With a shaken voice and a timid smile
I had to tell the adoption agent that I had made a mistake....even though I have longed for a cat since my last one passed away....I had to TURN AWAY.

There she sat
in her cage
Sad and Lonely
Just Like ME

Anxiety takes many forms

so now
Here I sit
On my Couch
All alone
With litter and food in my trunk

SHIT